attitude check

God is good. He is faithful. and He’s such a loving Father, to gently chide us and discipline us.
on sunday, i had a bit of an attitude check about this whole pregnancy thing, and the stress of working on the house, and all that jazz. God reminded me through song, through His Word, and through a tender rebuke from a friend that: He is in control, this baby is a gift (not a bother), i need to be thankful, there is ALWAYS a reason to praise Him.
it’s weird how long people will let you get away with complaining when you have a giant baby bump sticking out and capturing the attention of any passersby. i mean, yes, there’s a lot of changes going on, and there’s something new every day, but that’s no reason to complain and dwell on the negative. it’s almost as if people WANT to hear the negative things–their face asks in that contorted sort of way, preparing to sympathize with you. i’d like to throw them for a loop (for this last month, since that’s all i’ve got left!) and show them how grateful and excited i am to have this opportunity to carry another life into the world! sure, i won’t sugar-coat it, but i want to end on a positive note. (i think part of it has also been working with a couple girls from the neighborhood who just want to be pregnant. and i keep telling them: yeah, it’s great, but you have to have the commitment of the daddy to be in this for life in order to make it work. otherwise it would be just plain miserable. but i digress.)
i’m excited to be a mom. i’m excited to see how our family grows, and how daniel and i will learn to be Godly parents. i’m excited to see who she is, and what she grows up to be. i’m excited that her room is nearing completion. i’m excited for the baby showers that are still to come (and the one we’ve already had–i feel so prepared already, and i know it will only be more so as we continue to get bags fo clothes from friends, and bottles of lotion, and bundles of diapers, and advice from great parents, and all that comes of welcoming a new baby to life!). i’m excited to see what kind of Light we can be here in price hill in being a family (i know. i remember how it was growing up here–we kids were the doorway to relationships with our neighbors, and i’m excited to see how God uses our little girl to reach out to this community). i’m excited to see her fall in love with her Father. i’m excited to help cultivate that relationship, while cultivating my own with Him. i’m excited for dates with my man, and making sweet memories together, just the three of us (for now). i’m excited to have it be more than just the three of us later down the road, too, if that be the Lord’s will.
most of all, i’m excited for her to be here, to meet her, to hold her, and let someone else hold her for a while, too. “thank You, Lord, for this precious time. don’t let me waste any more moments grumbling and complaining about something that is so obviously a treasure from You. may we accept everything that comes our way as a treasure, a way for You to grow our faith and get into us and deepen our understanding of You. thank You. amen.”

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